Yeah it's been a while and 1 year since we're in this whole pandemic crap. I mean yes of course I miss blogging and all but if you didn't have the motivation then what's the point right. (NOTICE that I use DID not instead of DO not)

So anyway I am not gonna do the whole new year or resolutions crap. To be honest, I no longer know what to achieve cus everything seems so far fetched now. Work? Study? Life? Everything just sounds bizarre. When this pandemic happened, it just sucked everything outta my life.

I no longer have the passion to keep hunting for a job within my field. With competing with fresh grads and experienced, I honestly stood for zero chance. Sure, I have had a handful of interviews with some giant companies (MNC I mean) and also not so giant ones. By far, the interviews with MNC were the best. Legit. I then worked an odd job just to survive before securing my adult job again but I had to endure 9 miserable months working with people that I questioned God why such people gotta exist. I realise how privileged I am to be able to utter that out but it's just the truth. It was an unpleasant experience and damn, that place sure made me not to eat one of my favourite food again which was pretty sad tbh. So if you would like to stop eating your favourite fast food then by any means, please go work at your fav chain.

Moving on. I am so grateful that I wasn't and am not in college as to date. I assure you,,, I could not handle ODL like for real. I actually joined some free courses from KCL and Uni of Leeds (BECAUSE I MISS STUDENT LIFE LMAO) and even with FREE courses, I struggled to finish. What more with the paying ones. And for that, I am thankful that I am not in college. And to all students out there, I don't know how you guys do it but keep moving! Don't give up and stay in school and don't do drugs.

2020 taught me the reality of being an adult. Hardcore. Haih.

Well I guess, this is it for now. Write soon.